Living life on purpose

Sunday, June 04, 2006

 

LBY: Final

I've learned some things through this study that were completely unanticipated at the beginning.

First, I don't much care for blogging about a Bible study. At least not weekly. I needed more time to mull things over, apply them to areas of my life and pray before moving on to the next day/week. This was a much more indepth Bible Study than I'm used to and I really could have benefited from additional time. I think I'm a slow learner...lol

That said, I'll be starting the entire study over and completing it at my own pace. I LOVED the study and I'm looking forward to doing it again - in 4-6 weeks.

Second, blogging for this was stressful for me. I had a lot of upheaval in my life in the past 10 weeks (wow - you ladies did too!) and I felt very inadequate in the shadow of the others who are more experienced bloggers (I started my blog to do this study) and more eloquent writers. Sometimes things were in my heart that I just couldn't get down on "paper".

The biggest thing I learned about myself is that I'm WAY too invested in appearances. I do so many things for the approval of others and that has to change. LBY is really living for HIm. Stop the insanity of "keeping up with the Jones'"! Enough!!

LBY for me is living holy and open to what God has in store for you. It's letting God write your story.

God has been directing me since March. I've been praying and pleading with Him for direction. Why is my life chaos? The above mentioned sins were revealed and also the revelation that I'm completely overextending myself. I have 4 kids (9, 6, and 2yo twins) and I am totally letting their lives slip past me. I'm not sure when it happened but I immersed myself in so many other activities that I'm forsaking my own family.

That lead to the decision to stop teaching Sunday School in September when this quarter is over. I love doing it, but I'm doing it for the wrong reasons and it's a huge source of stress for me requiring more time that I have to give at this point. My heart is not in it right now. Now that's not to say that I will never do it again. It's just saying I need to step back for a while.

And focus on my Mom's Group at church. I cannot do both effectively.

Bah - DH and the kids are waiting for me - I'll have to finish this post later.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

 

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Thursday Thirteen

Thirteen Things to BE THANKFUL FORthis week


1. That last week as I sat in the house with only the two (mostly) preverbal kids, I was able to meet with the Lord and be filled again with His Spirit


2. That my MIL's cancer (MALT lymphoma) is very much treatable


3. That I'm regaining my focus. My FlyLady lists are out, I'm inching my way back to completing my daily list and I started working out again this week. I value that 30-60 minues a day and I don't know why I ever let myself get out of the routine.


4. That the Lord has been finding ways to minister to my Spirit daily. I've been doing my LBY study and I'm feeling less beaten down. Praise Him!


5. That school is almost out for the summer


6. That DH and I have a babysitter tomorrow night - free! I had forgotten that I had set this up like 6 weeks ago. DH will be so surprised!


7. I have four living, breathing and growing kids that love me. I'll always grieve for the one that I cannot hold but I don't want to miss a moment of the lives of the ones who's eyes I can look into each day. God has so richly blessed me.


8. Despite my DH's pay cut, he HAS a job when so many others do not. God has supplied all we need and so much of what we want.


9. I got my flowers in this week. I love looking out the window and watching how quickly they fill in the baskets haning from my porch.


10. I have AWESOME "real life" friends. One is moving away soon and I'll miss her so much. She has been an enormous influence in my life as a mother, wife and Christian.


11. That I have a great group of "blogging buddies" who really amazed me with all their prayers for my family in the midst of my pain last week. I was so surprised to log in and see so many sisters in Christ lifting my family up in prayer.


12. That my pastor is always willing to drop everytying and pray with me if I just ask him to. Even at a moments notice (and it often is)


13. That my sins are washed in the blood and I bear them no more. Hallelujah!!

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