Living life on purpose
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
I'm not good at this blogging thing. My husband says I shouldn't try to be funny and, without humor, who wants to read about the day to day happenings in MY life? I like reading blogs because it helps me feel connected to other moms who are living lives parallel to my own. They *get* why needing to take two kids to the dentist at 8am and two different kids to the doctor at 10am is a pain. They get why I feel overwhelmed sometimes when all I do is "stay at home" (yeah, right!)
Today the kids have a dentist appointment and the boys have a doctor's appointment. I think they still have a stubborn ear infection hanging on. M was crying in his sleep last night - poor thing. He cries like his little heart is breaking.
I'll be heading to a friend's house to help her out today while DH is home with the boys. My friend had a kidney transplant in January, a second surgery resulted in a stroke. She is doing so much better than she was a month ago. She tires easily and there are some household chores she just can't tackle yet. I don't mind helping her - she's so sweet and has done so much for me.
I've been lucky to be a part of a fabulous mom's group at my church for the past 4 years. Those ladies and I have grown so much during that time. They have been so sweet to us during this "bump" in the road regarding DH's job. One has brought us dinner twice and another brought the most awesome manicotti over yesterday. It was a comlpete surprise and very much appreciated. They're great friends and I'm so blessed to have them in my life.
Friday, March 24, 2006
So today I was up at 7am. Yeah, yeah, I'm shooting for 6:30am - this *is* a step in the right direction.
Once I'm up, I'm fine. I want to get up earlier. I know my day would run so much smoother if I could just DO IT.
Well, off to throw sheets in the washer - we have family coming for the weekend and I'm certain they would rather not sleep in kid filth all weekend. Nothing says "I love you like clean sheets". I might even get my own sheets washed today.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
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|Thirteen Things I need to do to GET UP EARLIER|
1. Go to bed earlier - no brainer, huh?
2. Set an alarm - seems, obvious....
3. STOP shutting the alarm off sometime during the night - *sigh*
4. Put my alarm clock across the room
5. see #3
6. Drink less water before bed- fewer trips to the potty during the night
7. Give up the notion that only "old" people go to bed before midnight - afterall, I did celebrate my big "3-0" this year
8. Get my 6am personal trainer back! - oh, yeah - I don't like looking at her early in the morning (just kidding - she was great)
9. Pray - "Dear Lord, please wake me up at 6am...."
10. Have 4 kids - Nope, didn't work. I have a wonderful husband who IS a morning person. He'll gladly get up in the morning. (No - he's not for rent/sale.)
11. Schedule all your appointments in the morning (Drs get mad when you always cancel 8am appointments)
12. Break down and sign up for a wake up call - Yep, like the hotels have. My phone rings at 6:30am every morning. Read more about it here http://www.iping.com Too soon to know if it works.....
13. Seriously, how do you train yourself to get up early? I am SO not a morning person
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Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Trust. I have a really hard time trusting anyone. I know God loves me but I still get sidetracked by what my human eyes see and wonder if He really cares about me and whatever little problems I have.
I mentioned my DH's pay cut. God has carried us in so many ways before - I should KNOW He cares and things work out. Still, I worry.
A few things that have taken place since my DH's pay cut...I was lamenting with a friend (who has moved from my local area) about DH's job, his future with this company and the impact his pay cut is having on our family. The short story is that she sold her house here in town and with part of the profit from that she sent me a WalMart gift card. She shared my story with another friend who had moved away more than a year ago (and I had lost contact with) and that friend also sent a WalMart gift card as well. Those two gift cards and $75 of our money stocked my freezer with meat for a family of six that will last approximately 5-6 months!!
We literally went from doing ok to welfare over night. Having been living paycheck to paycheck before, the pay cut has an enormous impact on us. I came home from Hearts at Home (http://www.hearts-at-home.org
) - which was paid for LONG before we knew of any pay changes - to find a check from Friend A. The first words in her note? "Don't freak out....." LOL!
Then this afternoon - I was sitting here taking a break from cleaning house before I run upstairs and take a shower. Another friend's car pulls up in front. She was dropping a card in my mailbox when I answered the door. She only had a second so she handed me the card and off she went. I was glad since it's 3:10pm here and I'm still bra-less and unshowered! Inside the card was a gift certificate for Aldi in it and the nicest note I have ever received.
God works. God works when we're not looking, when we think we've been forgotten and when we're about to give up. God works when we're willing to listen and obey.
I am so blessed to have great friends. It's like God is using my friends to say, "Trust me. I have you in the palm of my hand." I cannot even begin to say how happy I am to be a part of this. God is working in the lives of my friends and I'm excited to see what the future holds.
Off to the shower - finally!
Top Ten signs of Spring in Iowa
As taken from our local newspaper today:
Top 10 signs of spring
10) Boogers — See those sorry souls with watery eyes wiping their noses with sodden tissues? They have allergies, and spring marks the return of their misery. According to Radio Iowa, the warm winter means the allergy season started even earlier than usual this year.
9) Asian invasion — Remember when you'd never heard of the Japanese ladybugs. Introduced by the U.S. Department of Agriculture in the 1970s and '80s to control insects, they winter in homes and reappear by the bazillions as the weather warms. One gardening Web site suggests baiting them with a slice of apple and storing them live in a sealed cup in the refrigerator. They'll sleep for weeks and can be introduced into your garden in the summer for pest control.
8) Fake bakes — Spring means prom, and prom means girls with man–made tans and pasty–faced dates.
7) Prom dresses — As their tans get richer, the girls' parents get poorer, dropping big bills on gowns that are overpriced and understitched.
6) Walleye — Sure, there are diehards out there who think 10 below is just right for fishing. But average anglers like water in the rivers and ice in their coolers. For them, spring starts when the mercury soars, their Mercury motors roar and the walleye spawn.
5) Kites — Yeah, it's a cliche. But what is more spring–y than a kite wobbling against a clean blue sky?
4) Tractors — Take a drive in the countryside this week and you'll see green John Deeres shaking off the dust of their hibernation and readying for a long summer under the hot sun. Better yet, close your eyes and listen for their thumpy rumble carried on the breeze.
3) Supermarket greenhouses —They pop up overnight, use up parking spaces, and get green thumbs itching to dig in the dirt.
2) Chatter — Common back when playing on a team was more important than acting cool, it has fallen out of favor of late. But on certain windless nights, it's still possible to hear Little Leaguers pounding their mitts, chirping like crickets and sending every pitch toward home with a mighty "Swing, batter."
1) Snow — Enough said.
Do they even make these??
I've spent the last 30 minutes scouring the interent for ladybug rub-ons. You know, those things you lie face down on something and rub the back with a popsicle stick. I need those!
I'm getting a bit discouraged in my hunt. I did find some but they were the ugly kind - ladybugs with LEGS and stuf. Yuck! I want CUTE ladybugs. :)
So if anyone out there knows where I can find some, I'd be forever thankful.
The kids are home from school today. We spent the morning lounging for the most part however we did manage to get the kitchen CLEAN. I'm so happy when I look in there now. We even cleaned out two cabinets that really needed it. I believe the bigger two will be going outside after lunch and the smaller two will be taking a nap. I'll probably continue with my premature spring cleaning. The calendar says it's spring, but we have several inches of snow on the ground today. I think it's our first of the season (could that be right?!) so it's nice to see.
Moving on before I type another version of "Ladybug rub-on" into yet another search engine. :O)
Monday, March 20, 2006
Let God write your story
I’m back from my second Hearts at Home conference. If you ever get the chance to go to one – GO! You will not regret it. (http://www.hearts-at-home.org)
For the fall 2005 conference in Rochester, MN, five of us made the 5 hour trip and came back feeling refreshed and renewed. For this conference, there were 12 of us – 4 friends from MUMS, 4 friends from church and 3 ladies I only met once in passing. We’re hoping to grow the group coming from this area each conference. It's an amazing opportunity to grow as a mother, a Christian and a friend.
Someone said something that summed up the weekend….”This is really all about GOD. I expected it to be about being a mom, but it is really all about GOD.” Another said that she had never viewed motherhood as a ministry before the conference.
And it is! It should be out primary ministry. Often, it is not. It's so easy to get bogged down with the day to day that we forget that our primary ministry should be in our homes. Mothers have an amazing opportunity to impact the next generation for God! That is no small assignment!
Over the past three years God has been leading me in conquering fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of no control, fear of failure. As I was thinking about fear and it's impact on my life and my mothering, I realized that it’s not fear I’m dealing with as much as it is lack of trust. If you truly trust God with all that you are fear has no position in your heart.Fear is crippling. I get panicky, overwhelmed and withdrawn. This leads to depression, anxiety, and worry. I stop living the life I should/could be living.
When you trust God fear is driven away. When you realize that God really *is* in control, fear vanishes.
One keynote speaker this weekend, Lysa Terkeurst from Proverbs 31 ministries, gave her testimony and said one thing that really hit home for me. It’s simple: “Let God write your story.”
It’s simple, yet profound for me. In January, DH took a 30% pay cut. It amounts to $15,000 for us (you do the math – we were on a budget before). I’ve had a really hard time dealing with this. He did nothing to deserve it, it was a corporate decision. It affected others as well. It was a blow to his masculinity and a source or fear for our family. On paper, our home doesn’t function on this lower income.
I’ve been struggling with trusting God through this. We’re a family of 6 and it’s scary.
“Let God write your story.”
That’s what I’m going to do. Release all the fear to Him. We’ve weathered more difficult times in the past and He has never failed us.
Three years ago, we were at the bottom. I sat in a hospital frrom and prayed desperately for the Lord to do things the way *I* wanted Him to. “Lord, please spare the life of this child. Let her live. Please Lord, perform a miracle here and we’ll tell it as long as you give us breath.”
He didn’t. My youngest daughter was taken from us. 36 hours before she had been healthy and perfect. It never occurred to me that I may never see her become an adult. He did things HIS way. It was hard to accept. Disbelief. That's the only word to describe how I felt leaving that hospital without my daughter. I sit here now and I cannot imagine the things He may have saved my family from. Had my daughter lived she may have lived her days in a wheelchair, she may not have ever known the carefree laughter of childhood; she may have drawn her sustenance from a feeding tube or maybe never even opened her eyes again.
God’s perfect will for our family was not that my daughter live. God’s will was that we reach a desperation in our search for him that could only be achieved through her death. From the rocking chair in the hospital room where I begged for my daughter’s life I could not see the blessings He had for me. Today, I know that He used her death to reach me and give me a better life and a richer relationship with Him.
“Let God write your story”.
I’m glad He wrote mine. It’s not the one I would have picked had He given me a choice but it is the one he had planned for me all along. I will see my daughter in heaven someday and have the opportunity to thank her for fulfilling the purpose God gave her. Her life changed me. Her death gave me the courage to be transparent. It gave me the courage to live my life for Him. Her death exposed my human shortcomings. It threw the door open to reveal things I had hoped would always remain hidden. Her death gave me courage to change.
So as I sit here after Hearts at Home weekend, I am reminded that I can trust him to write my story. Financial concerns, damaged relationships, and FEAR will always be a part of life here on earth. If we trust Him to write our story, fear will be driven out. He can use heartbreaking circumstances to work a miracle in our lives that we never imagined was possible.There is so much more to write about this weekend but I'll have to save that for another time.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
:::tap:::tap:::tap::: Is this thing on?
Reluctantly, I've been inspired to start a blog.
The truth is I love reading blogs. There is something comforting in knowing that someone, somewhere is having the same sort of day you are! Good or Bad, it's always exciting!
This is Hearts at Home weekend for me so I only have a moment. Check back later and I'll have something interesting to blog about. Twelve women in 3 hotel rooms for the weekend? Oh, yeah - there will be something interesting to talk about.