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Sunday, June 04, 2006

 

LBY: Final

I've learned some things through this study that were completely unanticipated at the beginning.

First, I don't much care for blogging about a Bible study. At least not weekly. I needed more time to mull things over, apply them to areas of my life and pray before moving on to the next day/week. This was a much more indepth Bible Study than I'm used to and I really could have benefited from additional time. I think I'm a slow learner...lol

That said, I'll be starting the entire study over and completing it at my own pace. I LOVED the study and I'm looking forward to doing it again - in 4-6 weeks.

Second, blogging for this was stressful for me. I had a lot of upheaval in my life in the past 10 weeks (wow - you ladies did too!) and I felt very inadequate in the shadow of the others who are more experienced bloggers (I started my blog to do this study) and more eloquent writers. Sometimes things were in my heart that I just couldn't get down on "paper".

The biggest thing I learned about myself is that I'm WAY too invested in appearances. I do so many things for the approval of others and that has to change. LBY is really living for HIm. Stop the insanity of "keeping up with the Jones'"! Enough!!

LBY for me is living holy and open to what God has in store for you. It's letting God write your story.

God has been directing me since March. I've been praying and pleading with Him for direction. Why is my life chaos? The above mentioned sins were revealed and also the revelation that I'm completely overextending myself. I have 4 kids (9, 6, and 2yo twins) and I am totally letting their lives slip past me. I'm not sure when it happened but I immersed myself in so many other activities that I'm forsaking my own family.

That lead to the decision to stop teaching Sunday School in September when this quarter is over. I love doing it, but I'm doing it for the wrong reasons and it's a huge source of stress for me requiring more time that I have to give at this point. My heart is not in it right now. Now that's not to say that I will never do it again. It's just saying I need to step back for a while.

And focus on my Mom's Group at church. I cannot do both effectively.

Bah - DH and the kids are waiting for me - I'll have to finish this post later.

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